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I don't know what to put here

Wed Jul 16, 2014, 5:56 AM
For the very first time I am worried about getting on a plane.

The plane just keeps crashing down every time I picture it, but what's ironic is that the one crashing is in fact me. I can barely stand under the weight of my feelings. 

My time in Japan is ending. This is my final night here, and I cannot believe it. Almost a full year in another country, one completely different than my own. The list of experiences I've had and of people I've met and of things I have seen and done is too long to recount right now. I'm too shocked that I just said, "Thank you for everything, good night" to my host family only a moment ago. Too shocked to cry yet or think straight. So for now I'll just keep it like this. 

I am a changed person. I will never go back to how I was before, and thank the high heavens for that. The highs and lows are going to stay with me. I have written one of the best chapters of my life and I will never stop being grateful for the opportunity. I sit here awed and humbled, and stronger than ever. 

My host mother told me the most heartbreaking thing tonight. I am her tenth and final host student, and each time the student left she would enter their newly-empty room and it would always feel like it had all been a dream. 

Okay, this is too much... When I stop grieving, or, no—to help along the grieving process, I'll write everything down that I can remember, so that I don't forget. I'll post to my blog (pictures too) so that you can see. My heart is filled to the brink with incredible, trembling feeling. It feels like it will either sink under the pressure or burst. 

One year, over. Turn the page; keep writing—another year shall begin. 


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People are unreasonable, illogical and self-centered.
Love them anyway.

If you do good, people will accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives.
Do good anyway.

If you are successful, you will win false friends and true enemies.
Succeed anyway.

The good you do today will be forgotten tomorrow.
Do good anyway.

Honesty and frankness make you vulnerable.
Be honest and frank anyway.

The biggest person with the biggest ideas can be shot down by the smallest person with the smallest mind.
Think big anyway.

What you spend years building may be destroyed overnight.
Build anyway.

People really need help but may attack if you help them.
Help people anyway.

Give the world the best you have and you might get kicked in the teeth.
Give the world the best you've got anyway.

- Anonymous

A good piece of wisdom to live by, learned from a 90-year-old woman: "People do things for their reasons—not yours!"
And from my mother: "Do the best you can with the best of what you have." (Gets me through the day. :meow:)

Octopuses... or is it octopi? Wondering what the best way to say the plural form of "octopus" is? Check it out here.

Finally, because I'm girly sometimes:
-->Sweetest marriage proposal ever!
-->Most awesome marriage proposal ever!

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