For the very first time I am worried about getting on a plane.
The plane just keeps crashing down every time I picture it, but what's ironic is that the one crashing is in fact me. I can barely stand under the weight of my feelings.
My time in Japan is ending. This is my final night here, and I cannot believe it. Almost a full year in another country, one completely different than my own. The list of experiences I've had and of people I've met and of things I have seen and done is too long to recount right now. I'm too shocked that I just said, "Thank you for everything, good night" to my host family only a moment ago. Too shocked to cry yet or think straight. So for now I'll just keep it like this.
I am a changed person. I will never go back to how I was before, and thank the high heavens for that. The highs and lows are going to stay with me. I have written one of the best chapters of my life and I will never stop being grateful for the opportunity. I sit here awed and humbled, and stronger than ever.
My host mother told me the most heartbreaking thing tonight. I am her tenth and final host student, and each time the student left she would enter their newly-empty room and it would always feel like it had all been a dream.
Okay, this is too much... When I stop grieving, or, no—to help along the grieving process, I'll write everything down that I can remember, so that I don't forget. I'll post to my blog (pictures too) so that you can see. My heart is filled to the brink with incredible, trembling feeling. It feels like it will either sink under the pressure or burst.
One year, over. Turn the page; keep writing—another year shall begin.
—Frae
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Long Time No See
Well, hello, there. It's been a while since I've updated this, and I'm not even sure why I'm doing it now, especially since I keep up with people more actively on Skype than on here.
An awful lot has happened since I've been inactive—well, there were two huge things in particular, to be more precise.
—TL;DR... car accident + new boyfriend, and a few other things mentioned in the last paragraph if you want to skip to that.
At first it was part of my inactive phase that comes and goes. Then it was that shocking cause to a change in life events, and the first of the two major causes I mentioned, known as the car accident. Yes, I
Customize the New DA Look...
Change the top bar with this:
Everything important up top was moved to the right, which I think is a ludicrous idea. It's the only thing I really dislike about the new changes, so I was happy to see that someone was kind enough to spread word about how to put it back in the center, where it's much better off.
Here is what I now see after using that link, which literally took less than a minute:
Cool. My username and notifications are back in the center and not practically blending into the top bar on the right. How stupid...
Hope this helps!
Frae
JLPT and Facebook, Tumblr
To be honest I really just want to put a more positive journal up to replace the previous one, so I'll talk about a couple of updates.
I registered for the Japanese Language Proficiency Test. I will take the N2, which equates to upper-intermediate. It is the second-highest level available, and the next after it is advanced. I'm not sure whether I'll pass, but I hope to gain experience in taking the test so I'll be better prepared to take it again in the future (and hopefully by then I will be taking the highest level, the N1). Fluency is my goal! :dummy:
In other news, I made a brand new Facebook page and a new Tumblr profile for my artwork
Damn it all.
Heh, the title looks nice in that font even though it's negative.
One of the people I was watching, someone I liked, has deactivated his account. It hurts, and I've begun missing him immediately. I regret not talking to him more. Even though I have no clue why his account has been deactivated, I can't help but feel like I should have done more and been a better friend to him. Yes, I'm saying I feel a bit responsible, even if I may not be. Silly, I know.
I wear my heart on my sleeve occasionally, and yet I'm still shy about contacting people. It has improved in the past five years but it could be better. I don't know why he left dA, but I mi
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I can give you the statistics: according to this website I found, theres a 1 in 3.4 million chance that you will be in a plane crash that results in at least one fatality. Despite the stories, in reality plane crashes are very rare, and most plane crashes dont cause fatalities.
Heres the statistics site: www.planecrashinfo.com/cause.h…
Heres the statistics site: www.planecrashinfo.com/cause.h…